I Don’t Want Any Fucking Change!
In my darkroom!
Here’s the thing. People often ask me, why don’t I keep up with the photography, because I am pretty good at it.
I can give a million answers, but here is the god given truth. It isn’t because I’m scared of success, it’s because the shit is expensive. I forgot how expensive it is until today.
I bought three rolls of tri-x 400 speed (36 shots each) - $20
Shot two of them (at an ASA of 250 if you’re wondering) and got them developed at c-labs, skipped prints and had them burned onto a CD. - $40 (and still waiting for them)
I need 4-6 prints 8×10 - $10 each
Over a $100 bucks for two rolls. Of course I have to find a way to bring down the cost of this operation without comprimising quality, or time.
I kept circling back to it, but I… (FUCK) …need… (god why!) … a digital … (I’m no fucking cheater!) …. camera.
I hate digital. I LOATHE digital. I think it’s cheating. Pure cheating. I wanted to smack the shit out of the old guy acting all snotty with his shiny fucking canon, to take creepy shots of a barbie doll, and the other one acting all superior because he can save a fucking jpeg in fucking photoshop!
Yet, I can’t deny, even if I pay a grand for a new Nikon body (which I really don’t want to) I’ll have the money back within two or three semesters with what I saved in film and development costs. I can even shoot more, and you know do photo-essays again. I don’t need anymore lenses, because I have plenty.
Ok maybe a new wide 24mm fast wide angle would be nice.
But it hurts so much! I love my holga, my n90s, mighty joe and my yashica-mat. I wanted to do HOD in film, because it screams it!
DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT
Well there are worse problems in the world, but I still hate spending a grand.
