- Bomb Texas for freedom -

I was thinking today. About how I have a habit of burning my bridges. That if wronged, or if I feel that I am in the right I will destroy any chance of reconcile.

It’s a scorpio thing, I think.

But is it a bad idea, is the question. When I had this train of thought, I thought of Stalin and how the standing order to his troops was “not one step backwards”, if they ran back they got shot. But the same thing applies here, we can’t go back in time. I can’t go back to Kmart when I was 17 to kiss and make up.

I can’t not get drunk at my brother’s wedding. I can’t not drop out of college. I can only go forward. By burning bridges I figure that’s the only way I can make sure I continue going forward and not give myself a safety net. Life is too short to bitch and moan about how stupid you are, because trust me you are a retard.

I’m going to be moving pretty soon, I’m going to stay with some people in queens for a bit so I can get out of Staten Island and rebuild. Now here I am debating on gaurenteeing that I will never stop foot on this forsaken island again, this boro of the damned has nothing redeeming about it. Not the people (although there are a few I love and care for), not it’s beauty, nothing. The only ways I can see is blowing up the ferrys, and the Verrazano. Which I really don’t want to do.

But however maybe around this time next month, I’ll be in a place with slightly more civilisation. It’s not the city, and it’s not brooklyn, but at least there will be a beach near by.