- Bomb Texas for freedom -

It’s safe to say I experienced the schmorgus board of the roller coaster of life being a bum.

I learned a lot from this time thus far, I think I mentioned it before. But learn more and more as time goes by. The recent ones are…

1. Being able to clear a room of covenant in 30 seconds isn’t a job skill
2. Adult swim is the shit
3. I am nearly immune to carbon monoxide poisoning, the honta virus, extreme cold, and the seductive powers of J Lo
4. Japanese Anime sucks ass
5. I hallucinate a lot
6. If I lose my glasses, chances are they are in the bathroom
7. kraft macaroni and cheese with a can of tuna is a cheap meal

Mostly I’ve been bored, very very very bored. At first it was fun, I was watching law and order, playing xbox and staying up really late like I was a teenager and mom is gone.

Then I would go out, and like do stuff like hanging out a starbucks, and bars. Yeah it was fucking great. Well it still is, but I’m getting old.

But I know I’m cracking up from being jobless because I’m watching TV tonight, and I need to smoke. More so than usual, I have a NEED. It’s like I kill one off less than 10 minutes I need another. It’s like a single cigarette can’t satisfy my need anymore.

I’m also getting more symptoms of major stress, for example I can’t wake up. At all. I’m debating on setting up my stereo next to my head to wake me up. Then I’m getting nightmares of George Bush chasing me down with a 4×4. Or I’m getting nightmares about canabalism.

I’m also blacking out and then snapping out of it in cabs in the meatpacking district. Usually the cabs are covered in blood and there is a dead hooker sprawled in the backseat with m……..

Wait never mind on that one.

But I need a job, I must have sent out over 100 resumes at this point and I’m not getting any call backs this time. Yeah I’m getting scared, so if there is any recommendations. I’ll take them.